It Is Well

My mind races constantly here.  There is so much going on all the time that finding moments to be silent are in high demand.  Poor Megan had to have an allergic reaction in order to find rest.  She is doing much better today.  I finally slept last night.  God is so good.  I can't even begin to tell you how amazing He is.  I should be dead on my feet after three days of very little rest--He has supplied the energy to get out of bed and keep moving.  This morning it was time for a break.  I didn't run - I slept and it was glorious. 

I want you all to know that Russia is an experience.  Not at all what I expected.  I thought cold would be harder "to do"--thankyou perimenopause.  Don't go getting any wrong ideas--I am not planning on moving here - sunshine is one of my happy pills, my medication, my mood stabilizer.  Return maybe--hopefully in the summer months (we'll see what the Lord wants).  I have met so many amazing people and my eyes and heart have been opened to needs here. 

Let me tell you a secret though.  I have wanted to defect so many times on this journey.  I totally get you John Mark!!!!!  I have a new understanding/respect and I will defend you!!  I have had to talk myself back from the ledge of leaving so many times--you actually had the guts to say bag it--impressive.  My chant:  Don't be a John Mark, Don't be a John Mark, Do not be a John Mark!  I say this to myself when things get tough, when emotions run too deep, when words are spoken and can't be snatched back.  But.............oh, there is beauty in the staying.  There are moments where God smiles though the eyes of children, through the hugs of friends, through coming to understandings, to forgiving what you don't understand, to seeing the beauty in what you missed the first time around when you're looking at it again.

It is well, it is well with my soul!

Jen